reflections & redemptions

We bring so much to the table, our past, our mistakes, our attitudes, our failures, our experiences, our histories. Often we allow those to determine who we are and what we will become and do in the future. And typically, we focus more on the negative situations and allow them to haunt our future and identity.

I’ve been working with a good friend and my wife on expressing & communicating the hurts in the past; to not allow them to determine my interactions and relationships in the future. It’s taken me about a year to realize how jaded I’d become and unfortunately significant, it has caused me to become overwhelmingly disconnected or to be insanely sarcastic – in unopportune times.

It’s so easy to fall in the trap that all experiences we go thru will be similar to the bad ones and therefore we become cynical looking at present and future relationships and situations.

Over the last two weeks, I’ve heard amazing teachings on the importance of serving a God who takes the mess and creates beauty, who takes the negative experiences and overcomes them; and that it’s only God that is good and only in him should I run for comfort.

It’s true that our past makes & molds us, but I’m learning to trust the present that God has us in and enjoying the journey into the unknown.